First, I will get the update about my second 3D ultrasound session out of the way. Maliya sort of cooperated. Mr did get to go since he was off work, so that was really nice. She kept half of her face in the placenta the entire time, but we got to see her open her mouth and yawn, put her fingers in her mouth and she was also licking the placenta. Yes, I said licking. While in 2D view, we could see her little mouth open and her tongue come out...it was so...weird. She also opened her eyes while we were in 3D view, which is the one good photo we got to bring home that day. It was really exciting, I had no idea babies opened their eyes while in the womb. The tech said some do, but not usually. So that was a cool experience. I have to go back again on Sunday, the 26th. Hopefully she gives Mommy, Daddy and her big brother a good gift and shows us her entire face!! Cross your fingers, please.
Dillon has been stimming excessively since he's been out of school on winter break. It is getting to be a lot for me to deal with every day, it has become quite exhausting to say in the least. I know it is because he is not as busy like when he is in school all day long, playing and learning with his friends and constantly going here or there for lunch or the library, etc. And his other behavior has been bothering me too. He has started pinching himself recently. It seems he does it when he gets in trouble or when he is frustrated, but it is still concerning. I stop him and explain that it isn't nice to do and to be nice. Usually he tries to keep doing it other places or will try to tug his hair and I have to keep stopping him and explaining it to him.
Sometimes I feel like I have failed as a mother. I feel like I did this to him somehow, although I know that is not logical at all. I can't help it though. I mean, as mothers we carry our babies in our bodies until they are born. Naturally I blame myself because I was the only one caring for him during that time. And as my due date gets closer...I find myself getting more anxious about Maliya and if she will also have Autism or any other developmental problems. I know that Autism is more common in boys and it was a random happening in our situation as no one in mine or Mr's family has any history of Autism or any other developmental problems. I wish I didn't have anxiety over these things. I don't know how not to have it. It just adds to my exhaustion, between Dillon and being in the 3rd trimester now too.
I am just so ready for March to be here so our baby girl can join our family already. Well, first I want Christmas because I love Christmas time!!! Then I wouldn't mind fast-forwarding to March....
I hope everyone is ready for Christmas!! It is only a few days away!!! I still have to get Mr's last gift, wrap the rest of Boog's gifts, wrap my camera that was delivered this evening and one of Mr's stocking stuffers I bought today. Goodness...men are so hard to shop for!
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